Meditation is a great technique. Some of the guided meditations are brilliant.
Since you are doing that try adapting law of attraction into your life. This in turn helps you outlay a positive mindset. Instead of thinking of negatives constantly it trains your brain to think of positives.
Keep going you got this. And no you won’t be judged. What I learnt during recovery is if you slip don’t beat yourself up. I’m lucky enough to have not and have the mindset not too slip.
You need to remember it’s make or break. After you do 3-5 weeks it’s so much easier I’m living breathing proof I’ve done it myself.
Any advice you can message me I can give you so many techniques… What worked for me might not work for you but I can always help