Hi there,
Just browsing and saw your post. I am going through pretty much the exact same situation. I broke up with my partner last weekend as he lied to me about going home at a decent time (he told me he was at home and therefore not taking any cocaine and alcohol, as we were suppose to meet the following day – he’s my social lockdown bubble – whereas it was 3am and he had continued his night drinking etc elsewhere).
Because I called him out on his lies, he reacted angrily and ended things, saying he is fed up of my criticisms and needs time to work things out. I know he just lashed out and jumped the gun because he thought I was going to break up with him. At this point, I am done with it..it’s causing far too much stress and anxiety and I just can’t accept the drugs. I tried to end the relationship last week but he promised he would prove to me that he can have balance and call it a night earlier so that he is not hungover all weekend when he sees me.
I know how you are feeling and it is awful, but you are not alone. Use this time to focus on you and take back control of your life. You might end up realising that it’s just not worth waiting around for. As other people have mentioned, people with substance use issues are very selfish and will only do what they what, when they want to.
Stay strong and have a think about what you really want it life…this is what I am doing as I genuinely cannot put myself through the disappointment anymore and deserve more for my future, as do you xxx