Hi Ladies, well he has gone again. Hopefully to better things as he has moved in with his brother, who called him in tears because he is scared he will die. Even though I know this is what he needs to do as his brother has told him he must stay clean for at least a month, I still was very hurt as he asked me to run all of his stuff to him and not so much a thank you for putting him up myself at mine and taking care of him in every way I know how.
So now I’m left all alone, clearing up the mess and crying over my seriously bad financial situation right now. I have been referred to a psychiatrist too.
Unfortunately addiction is a selfish disease. I am not who I used to be, I look awful, have gained weight through stress eating and was using drugs myself way too much in order to just stay in harmony with him. I have completely fucked myself over only to be left out in the cold again.
I hope and pray that none of you end up at the place I’m in.
Hope you’re all ok. Xx