but just so you know, it’s perfectly normal to be going through all these emotions. Like myself, I think you need to step away and allow yourself time to heal.
If she’s accepting you deserve better than she can give, then she clearly realises that she has been wrong in how she’s treated you – so try not to respond, or react. It doesn’t do you any good to become bitter. Whilst using, no addict is going to really see the damage they have done. And until they accept that they have a problem and get help, it won’t improve – so it’s best to walk away.
If you have been a presence that challenges their drug use, then you are going to a welcome absence. No addict wants someone around challenging their behaviour and telling them what they are doing is wrong and damaging.. it kinda kicks at their conscience. So just continue to step back, stay away and heal yourself.. and don’t beat yourself up for however you feel. Accept your feelings, acknowledge them, and then take steps to deal with them. It’s ok to have a bad day or two.. just keep telling yourself you will also have good days.