Hi Catsmum,
Thanks for sharing your story. I’m so glad that you have found this forum so that maybe you wont feel so alone. I’m really sorry to hear how badly your son’s addiction has affected you and how ill it has made you feel.
If you would like some more support please contact us at Icarus Trust. we are a charity that offers support to families around those with addictions as we know how hard this is to cope with. we have experienced trained people that you could speak with if you get in touch. They are good listeners and would understand what you are dealing with. They would also be able to tell you what other help is available.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrst.org
I hope this helps. Good luck.