Hiya,
Just want to say you are not alone. I am going through simular at the moment, my partner of 7 years decided to go on a binge the last few weeks, and returned home thisevening, hasn’t contacted for 2 days, hes phone has been off, I’ve been sorting all the childcare on my own aswell as going to work. Being worried sick to my stomach that he was dead in a gutter somewhere. Nearly reported him missing to the police. Then he comes in tonight and says he was nearly dead as he had some sort of fit and was robbed of hes phone and everything.(funny he still had hes car keys though) he is now currently asleep on the sofa. Doesn’t care about how I have felt over the last few days. Doesnt care how I’ve had to cope. So selfish!!!! Tommorow I have alot of thinking to do about my future. Hope your ok.