Hi. This is regarding the post where someone asked does coke make people walk away and not care. I have/had the most beautiful man in my life, but he has been using C and smoking weed since 13yrs of age. I have commented here before. On good days he is the most caring and loving and treats me like a princess. Before lockdown he was using C no less than 2 times a week, smokes weed daily. Since lockdown i would say 3/4 times minimum. The thing is, he is pure jekyll and hyde. I have studied and studied personality disorders/addiction and I get left so confused as to whether i am dealing with the biggest arsehole, the effects of addiction the most thrown about word…. narc. So to answer your query…. yes they do disappear and yes they turn off all care/feelings towards the person they claim to love so much. The lack of taking responsibility for every little thing, left me walking on eggshells and apologising for things that were not my fault. Last year he walked away for two months yet mixtures of messages of love and of not wanting me anymore. This year already, its now over two months. I think C makes them incapable of being a loving caring individual all of the time. It makes them actually not give one shit at times. Ive been in limbo for two months yet will then get glimmer of hope texts every few days. They stamp all over your heart, not once taking any look at their treatment towards us. I think if something serious comes up, they run to C even more so and are able to shut down without a care for us or even fear we may leave.
This is obviously only my opinion. So i still remain non the wiser whether their total selfish behaviour is due to their greater love for C than us, their emotional incapabilities of staying and facing situations and will therefore just get off their tits.
This doesnt come from an angel or holier than thou. Up to last year i was taking E’s and doing C. My thing was alcohol so this year, im cutting that too. But i always know what is right and wrong in how I treat people and I do believe C destroys people from the inside out. Sending love to whoever needs it xxx