Hello heartbroken88,
I am really sorry your going through a tough time. I read your post and feel what you are going through.
I like how you talk about the behavioural side.
I’m new to this site and the more I read the more these behaviours are similar as are the responses from them. And thats very interesting to know. I really want to inform my self more. You would think over 10 years of this I would be inform enough. But apparently not. Its a new horrible horra story every time. Only ever letting me and the children down. I really like to hear other stories/ advice it gives some kinda insight of I’m not alone and there is help and alot of people manage to pull through. It gives me a little hope that I can pull my self together it’s okay to feel horrible and torn apart. I must add that you are very strong and although still very upset you seem to have a good direction on what you want out of life.
I’m still trying to push my self and escape this mess.
All the best to you and your children and I wish you lots of happiness and peace x