Not sure if this thread is still live but it really resonates with me. My bf of three years does coke regularly, and like so many of you have said, it goes in cycles. He doesn’t want to quit though 🙁
We have broken up previously partly due to it – he cheated on me with a girl that he did coke with. I keep thinking he will change but am I just deluding myself? He’s a different person when he’s on coke and I hate it. Plus he does it when his kids are in the house which I think is absolutely disgusting. He drinks a lot and gambles, so I guess it’s all part of the addiction. I don’t want to break up with him – if I give him an ultimatum I think he would choose the drugs. I don’t know what to do. I’m scared of starting an argument but every time he does coke it just makes me so sad and disappointed – and lonely because it’s something I don’t want to do. I feel like he resents me because he’s promised not to do it when I’m with him, but then I feel like he’d rather be doing it than with me.