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Also Emma

I think that because I was with him people assumed I was doing the same thing.

I guess with the lack of sleep, stress, weight loss from worry I began to look like I was using.

I do enjoy now going to sleep without the endless clattering about downstairs, the grind of the knife on the plate chopping the crack, the lighter firing, the TV controller getting dropped for the millionth time; the back door going and the car starting every three hours as he went off to town for another pick up, oh and then the alarm for me to get up for work as he lay dribbling into the sofa

No I do not miss it one bit!

Emma dig deep; you are hurt, but you made a decision based on what was happening to you. In time you will heal