I thought it was exactly them to the 3 questions, I guess it makes it alot worse when they are our soul mates or someone we thought we would spend the rest of our life together. And the last 2 guilty and doubt. You will never know the answer to. If you stayed would he have stopped. It’s not worth worrying about. It’s apart of life. What would of happened if I didn’t do this and that.. If I didn’t meet this person ect.. Its just part and parcel of life. Its happened, you did your best and move on. We all have our own journeys?. Have you read.. Many lives many masters? its about reincarnation and about how a doctor does past life regression on a patient for months, and he finds out loads of secrets about life, and how are loved ones are with us in past lifes. Honestly it’s amazing. The guy has been on Oprah and sold millions of books.
God’s honest truth sometimes talking about it does trigger it for me I’m not going to lie. My brain will trick me into wanting it by any means necessary. It did being on here the other day. But part of my 12 step program is I need to connect. And it does help me. I had a bad dream about using last night again. I woke up feeling guilty and that I’d used. I jumped on a meeting. And even spoke! I never speak, I hate stuff like that. But I need to or I can see me relapses..and now I feel great! Its weird how our addictions control us, turns us into bad people. The devil on our shoulder will manipulate you anyway. And u won’t even know. Even listening to a dance song can make me want to use. The thought of going out, get some coke. My best advice to anyone don’t even try coke! Not even alcohol. Why would you want to? People think that’s all there is. I can’t say anything lol but I’m getting to think that way.
Thanks for your positive comments. Hope you are well ????????