I talked to him briefly this morning because I could see that last night he did infact just have a small amount and didn’t do the usual staying up all night. He was up at 11am which is very early for him. Recently Saturdays have been him sleeping all day till atleast 5pm if not longer.
His ‘happy family’ comment I feel is his way of justifying using coke. He always talks about how rubbish his life is anyway. If only he could see now that his life is rubbish not because its rubbish but because the consequences of taking coke are making it rubbish. But I think he sinks into a depression that says fml I may aswell take cocaine because its the only thing that’s good.
Maybe his journey to sobriety is going to be a bit of fail and try again. It is hard not to jump on fail part but I have to look to the positives. He is up and playing roblox with our son and that is different.
Thanks danman for all your responses. I am feeling like coming on here stops me saying the wrong thing to my husband because when I talk to him after typing what I feel I am already calmer and ready to be helpful rather than judging towards him.