Hi I can totally feel every single word you write. We miss our normal life, rather than living in worry and sadness.
To be fair, my husband hasn’t never been this bad until recently. He normally does it every perhaps 3 times a week. And he did it at home and then went to his friends house for a night then came back the next day, then stayed in bed for a day then normal again. But since this 2 weeks he just lost control and stayed in hotel 5 nights altogether. He never went to hotel so that’s a new thing. I trust he was there on his own, for now anyway.
But because of this time, I can see the worse coming. I can’t imagine what will be like in the future. But perhaps I’m silly I can’t give him up yet.
He gave me all his bank cards last night and Today is Mother’s Day. He got up to make me breakfast for my daughter, and went back to bed to sleep. So a little bit normality came back. I don’t know what to expect I only know I need try to be positive for the sake of myself before I gone mental. And hope for the best. If he doesn’t change then I need to prepare for the worst.
How’s your husband now?