It is reassuring somehow isn’t it to read identical situations. It makes you feel more ‘normal’ in the un-normal.
You can kind of take comfort in thinking that most of their behaviour is typical drug addiction behaviour?
I have been very quiet this week, I’ve struggled. My husband and I are separated and living miles from each other. We are still in contact over the children (virtually only) he says he has stopped the cocaine, however I just know this not to be true. He has been uncontactable a few nights and groggy a few days. Typical behaviour of what I think to be the pattern.
He has also ‘forgotten’ Mother’s Day which I find deeply hurtful. My children are under two so by no means aware of the day & I am so so grateful just to have them & be with them but it doesn’t make it any less hurtful for me. it’s not about ‘stuff’ but I feel so hurt knowing my friends and family have ‘real’ husbands & fathers who step up & I just feel like crap and it just shows my husbands complete lack of respect for me especially as at the moment it is just me looking after our children because he isn’t capable. Every day I am on my own now just scrabbling to get through it not knowing what character he is going to play – jeckle or Hyde, or if he is going to cut us off again.
I don’t mean this to sound selfish or materialistic- I really don’t & im sure there isn’t a perfect family but at basic to have this stripped & to be abandoned is just a pain that is so tough to carry.
I honestly don’t think I can give him much more of my thought or energy because he is destroying me and in turn my family.
This is why I have been quiet on here, but equally it’s the only place where anyone can truly understand