Hello ( drained and tired )
Thanks for you response… so I don’t think it is herion then.
Guess these days you just never know. So my partner had a really bad addiction to cocaine in 2013 I think he started off smoking it and by 2016 he was definitely injecting. I kicked him out as he would disappear for days. Leaving me to raise our first child who was only 6 months old.
I ended up leaving him because he was so toxic and was destroying everything I enjoyed in life. He was basically living on the streets and had nothing. He found me one day and was so violent that he served 2 years in prison. I basically cut all contact at that point. Once he was released he was clear minded and was sorry for everything this really was a big change he put alot of effort in to prove he had changed. 3 years on he hadn’t touched anything our relationship couldn’t of been any better. We actually saved money and braught a new car and boat and were saving for a house BUT…Unfortunately last year he was diagnosed with fibromyalgia its like a nerve problem in the brain that gives you constant pain. Due to being on daily medication to cope he could no longer work as a qualified mechanic on this medication. I think this brought on a form of depression and maybe this is why he relapsed… I think this time he has only been using off and on for 3 to 4 months. He has never left home for the night but I’m sure his dealer is only in the next street from us.. I’m really at a loss.
I feel I have waisted alot of my time and effort that I can’t do this again.
I wish I could be there to help but I also think it’s time to walk away. I can’t imagine going down this road all over again to think about it honestly makes me want to skip the country and never return. Sorry to just go on and on … I’m sure your own issue are draining enough to take in… I just get the urge to write it down. It almost gives my brain the break to stop thinking about it. I haven’t spoken to any family this time around I can’t handle the judgement right now.
I admire how brave you have been and I’m sure this change in the long run will bring you lots of happiness x