Hi Angrybird,
Thanks for sharing your story and I’m sorry that your partner’s cocaine habit is having such an effect on you. Yes he does need help but it sounds like you could do with some yourself.
I work for a charity called Icarus Trust. we support the families around those with addictions because we know how difficult it is for them. we have trained and experienced people who you could talk with if you get in touch which might help you to see a way ahead.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you.