Your right it does seem mostly about splitting up on most of the posts but it’s a decision only you can make. Of course all the sneaking and lying wears you down in a relationship. Every one is different but what I’ve noticed is that people lose their individuality taking cocaine they seem to fit a pattern of behaviour. It’s unbelievable when I read your post and it could be my own life I’m reading.
When I first found out he did it on nights out i disapproved but i didn’t make a big thing of it as I naively believed it was something that he only did occasionally and that he would eventually stop. In the last year or so I have found he’s been doing it throughout the week at some points even every day!! . We had been at breaking point over it and then he managed to stop. I had been worried he would lose his job. I rely on him financially in our current situation and have had times over the last few years where he has messed up our finances.