I understand this. I feel this. I have been declining into a cocaine/drinking habit for years now.
I worked in the city as a broker in my 20s and I lived the high life – I found it easy to get on it, and easy to get off. Not now.
My beautiful wife and children, now 21, 16 and 15, are starting to see through me. My wife is desperate to keep our family alive but she knows she’s battling against my cocaine addiction.
I’ve always been very well paid and made good financial decisions but that is changing. I reckon I’ve blown £50k in the last 6 months.
Worst thing is, I did coke again today. I’m not sure why, it just happened.
I am a good person. But I am a flawed. And I am on danger of destroying everyone around me.
I do hope you get a chance to put things right.