Hi Dan, thanks for your reply. I was reading your comments on different threads, you’re giving hope to a lot of us on here!
Yea, he said that he does want to stop and the CA and counselling is coming from him, I’m not pushing him into it. I believe he wants to stop, I just doubt his ability! Hes been going to ca for 5 weeks but has been back on coke 3 weeks. He was actually sitting at a meeting with coke in his pocket! He said he finds it helpful, but if he did, how could he still be taking coke? I think he struggles with the spiritual aspect of it as he’s not religious. He said he’s going to take it more seriously this time. Although tonight is the first time he’ll be meeting up with his sponsor, so fingers crossed it will help somehow!
Yea, he knows he needs to stop alcohol too and hasn’t drank since January. I’m saying he needs to give up cannabis too, he said he will but I’m not convinced. At the moment, there seems to be no triggers or temptation to take coke.. He’s doing it in secret on his own. I’m terrified of ongoing relapses.. What happens after lockdown? We’re both known as the life and soul of the party and the last ones standing at a party.. How can we ever socialise again?! I’m having trouble accepting that part of my life is gone, I can’t imagine how that feels for him. I don’t think he’ll cope in those situations.
Jenna, my boyfriend is an expert at disguising his addiction.. But the signs I noticed is that he seemed distant, like he would be sitting beside me but no emotion. He stopped going to bed at the same time as me. He couldn’t explain where his money was going, got very stressed and defensive if I asked him.