annoying when it doesn’t let us post, don’t know why something triggers spam filter sometimes.
I don’t actually know if she is using or not,
we met up a few times and had really nice days together and she seemed like her good self, but thats the thing, she can only be like this if I keep my mouth shut, as soon as I try and talk about anything she turns into a different person.
so its not fair that things can only ever work if I bottle up how I feel, it shouldn’t be like that.
she is creating a negative environment for herself as she is her own worst enemy.
whilst I have no contact with her it is almost easier, as I have to let things go, whereas when we started talking again, it just opens up all these questions again and wanting answers but she is just too impossible to get anywhere with.
perhaps she is still using, or it is just too soon for her to be able to accept things and try to work through them, so maybe I shouldn’t have pushed it too soon, but then it’s back to everything always being about them and their feelings, whilst as usual our emotions are pushed back.