Thanks Ash, I’m hoping and praying that I’ll be able to come back here in a years time and be in the same position as you.
Like you, I’m worried that if I leave, he will lose it completely. But I’m also worried that if I don’t, I’m sacrificing my own future happiness. I’m 34 and I felt so ready to start a family and I know there’s no way I could think about introducing a baby to the situation the way it is. I’m so angry that he’s thrown all of our future plans out the window.
But thanks, everyone’s comments are helping me to soften/ calm down. I might be able to talk to him once he comes home from his sponsor.