My husband was doing really well for a few days and then last night he saw a few of his friends. He ended up doing it but he actually admitted it. He said he felt disappointed in himself and wishes he hadn’t done it, He said he wished he hadn’t gone out at all and had immediately regretted it. I told him that I thought he was just telling me what I wanted to hear. I had to bear in mind he didn’t come rushing home immediately after his mistake he stayed out for a few hours. He didn’t come home at an unreasonable time but I think that’s only because he had work early today. He stopped the staying out all night for a while now anyway so I know he had actually tried to improve but I feel like he is trying to find some kind of medium where I’m not angry but he can get away with doing it still. He doesn’t actually know any other way to socialise. I think the only time he leaves the house is when he has made some kind of arrangement to get hold of cocaine.
