Hi Annie
I can relate to your story. My partner has been battling a cocaine addiction for over 10 years. We have 3 children and I found out in january that he had been cheating on me for 5 months! I’ve found escort numbers on his phone too.
I know exactly how you feel. To think all the support I have given him over the years and he has done this to me. Its one thing dealing with the addiction but cheating is a whole different level.
I do question whether or not he would have done it if it wasn’t for the drugs, but then again he was conscious of what he was doing when he was picking her up, texting and meeting her when he wasn’t high. I do believe cocaine completely changes a person and he is no longer the person I fell in love with. However, this still doesn’t stop me from loving the person he was and not wanting to let go of him. It’s such a hard battle for families not just the addict. You hope that some day they will wake up but I’m still waiting and tbh I don’t think there is anyway of moving forward from the betrayal.