i can’t speak for anyone else but my addiction sneaked up on me.
I worked in London as a finance broker through my 20s. I earned a fortune and lived the high life. I have always liked a drink and I have always been a social user of cocaine. But i could take or leave it, and I often would. I certainly didn’t consider doing it when I wasn’t partying with friends.
That has changed during the last 12 months. I have become dependant on both alcohol and cocaine. This has sneaked up on me – the control has switched from me to the addiction – I just didn’t see this coming.
I am happy and healthy with the most beautiful wife and children.
Regarding associated behaviour, I haven’t been unfaithful to my wife but I have found myself gambling more than I ever half. Fortunately i realised before it was too late that i really didn’t need another addiction.
The cocaine drives you towards risk and thrill. The consequences just don’t seem real.
None of this is an excuse, my wife is trying to support me but i can see the hurt in her eyes. She’s exhausted with worry. The children too – I noticed my youngest daughter has tucked a photo of me holding her as a baby, on her bed side table.
Heartbreaking.