Thank you for posting and sharing your story. I’m sorry to see how much your partner’s addiction has hurt you. I’m glad you have found this forum but if you want any more help please contact us at Icarus Trust.we are a charity that offers support to people dealing with addiction in their family. if you contact us one of our trained and experienced Family Friends would be in touch with you. They would listen and let you know what support we could offer you. May be that would help you to find a way forward.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you.