I literally have just drove past an old dealer and he said hiya dan. I just beeped and carried on driving.
I didn’t want to pick up. But I was thinking about coke then, and past experiences when I got it off him. This is obviously triggering it. I’m at home now and I’m just gonna say a little prayer to take away these thoughts and fears. The old me would of stopped and ask has he any.
I can listen to dance music and it makes me want to use sometimes so I understand we’re u are coming from. Me personally I’d just suggest it to him, do you think you should listen to this? I wouldn’t say I don’t want you to. As he can just think.. She don’t want me do anything anymore. That’s my opinion. But u do what u think is best. I can understand if you say you ain’t going that friends, you are not drinking, and so on.. But if its just a music video I’d just suggest this will be a trigger, acknowledge it and try and avoid them please.
Sometimes we think we are being controlled when we are not, you just care. And use it as an excuse to use. That’s just my opinion but you do what u think is best for the both of you. I could be wrong. So please don’t think I’m being funny lol