My boyfriend is a coke addict in denial. he told me he only did it on special nights out with his friends but he had stress in his life with work last year and injured his back really bad so was prescribed pain medication. So this became his pattern :-
Stress, drink, coke more coke so high then back meds to sleep taking enough drugs to floor and elephant. Nearly lost his career and is still on the line with that. I could see it spiralling out of control but I also know there is nothing I can do. We are not financially attached I have my own home and I have my own life friends etc so I take care of myself. I love him so much and it hurts me to see him and if there was anything I could do to help him I would but I can’t. Not until he wants to help himself.
We split for 4 months he told me he is getting help from his work with the booze and pain meds but he can’t disclose about coke as he would loose his job. He is back at work, training hard in gym but I know he’s still doing coke. So it’s only a matter of time til it goes more and more down hill again. I know when he does it the same old tell tell signs sniffing, nose running, wired, heart racing, funny chemical taste when I kiss him, I have evening experienced a numb lips when I kissed him in the earlier days disgusting I don’t kiss him now I know. He try’s now to keep it from me as I left him and he was devastated and I know he doesn’t want to loose me again and I love him and I will be here fir him but I safe guard myself in every way but like I say it’s sad. I am posting here because I want to know if there are any one here that can give me any tips or anything to say that can help. I think really only rehab when he’s ready can help him it’s been 15 years of drug abuse for him I hate cocaine it ruins everyone’s lives. Thank you in advance