I am actually having a couple of drinks myself. It doesn’t remind me of him because I will just have a couple, if it was illegal or if someone really wanted me to stop I wouldn’t be doing it. I think I’m going to paint my nails also soon as that’s something I like to do and it makes me feel nice. Have a think if you can about what it is you enjoy? Of course you are longing for him to return but also your a person and what else would make you happy? You can’t really expect for him to bring you happiness in this state at the moment but you can do it for yourself.
Yes I have had all the broken promises it does break your heart but you are strong you can get through this. You have put up with so much already.
It’s easier to chat to a stranger about it because your family and friend have expectations of them and also feel disappointed when they find out. Your not responsible though if his parents find out and are upset as he is doing this not you.