I hope you have a nice relaxing bath, and i think you should try to make the time to do this once a week, see if you can make time for yourself it will help you to feel better about yourself. We can’t fix them but we can work on ourselves.
Yes he is having a few good days at the moment but of course I am on guard as we have been through it all before and he has a lot of temptations. For him it wasn’t hotels it’s was friends houses with house parties, i had to tell him I couldn’t tolerate anymore of that and I meant it I really wasn’t going to stick around while he did that, he had to tell his friends I didn’t want him going so of course they thought I’m boring and nagging. But he still has the problem of doing it day to day hanging out with friends and even doing it on his own if I’m at work. I have been doing a lot of reading up on it and accepting it as a disease we are going to work on treating it as that, which means taking it seriously and being open about it. Such as why he does it and what else he could be spending the time doing.