I totally understand what you’re saying and I was also thinking the same ????
I feel like he is telling me everything I want to hear right now but doesn’t mean it. I am following him all over, when he nips to the toilet I am sat at the stairs waiting for him, he went to his mams yesterday and I just kept thinking he was going to buy some. I feel bad because I have told him how much it has affected me over the past few months. I am on medication for my mental health and Im constantly thinking that I must not be good enough for him, or have i given him a reason to take cocaine.
I’ve asked him if he would tell me if he ever felt or thought about getting some and he said he would. But he also asked me to stop talking about it because he has absolutely no interest in it at all.
But I cant just forget about it. I find myself asking him questions daily and I am worried if this is an addiction, am I making it every more difficult for him with my constant questions and concerns.
The first day he said he would delete the number, then a couple of days later he said no because it is a mate that he has known for years and he doesn’t want to cut him out.
I just don’t know what to do for the best, am I best just letting him get on with it and try and trust him, or do I keep checking he is OK, had no cravings, not going to buy any etc. I have been an absolute b**ch to him and I regret the way I went on massively ????
We both had a little drink last night, he only had 3 bottles of lager, the whole time I just sat with him thinking do I need to keep him entertained so he doesn’t think about it. we sat up until he decided it was time to go to bed and he even left half his bottle of lager which he never does.
So I think it has now been 2 weeks since he had any. I suppose time will tell ????