Listen its nothing to do with you, stop beating yourself up about this, you will make yourself ill. If anything you are too good for him.
I always said to my gf if I get cravings I’d tell her. Sometimes I did. A lot I never. Your addictive brain does not want to own up to it really. I guess it depends how strong you are.
If he’s been using longer than 6 month, he’s addicted. You don’t have to use every day to be addicted.mine was every few week. Or once a week. If you always come back to it. Your addicted, or every payday. It’s up to u what you want to do. At the end of the day, you can mither him as much as you want. An addict will get what he wants if he wants it.
Having the 12 steps and a sponsor, I have good tools to help me. I was in a bad way last night and felt like using. I can’t really say on here why. But I phoned my sponsor and had a good chat and I felt OK after. But it was hard for me last night and I know I’ve got a long way to go. And summer just around the corner. I’m not looking forward to it