O no he was doing it occasionally years ago but it was something he didn’t do all the time and he seemed to have stopped (unless I just thought he did, maybe got better at hiding it and more lies), but I think a few years ago he had started doing it every night out with his friends, that’s when he was staying out all night.
But then It was about 18 months ago when it got so bad, he was staying up all night and had actually gone and got prescribed anti depressants because he was so down, I was really worried thinking he’s depressed because a close relative had passed away but I didn’t realise this was all come downs, so he was going between the cocaine and the anti depressants and wondering why he didn’t feel good. He was messing work around at this time and ended up on his final warning from being late and calling in sick because of all the upset stomachs, and days feeling down. He was lucky he has a good employer who even though they gave him all the disciplinaries they didn’t fire him. I think that what stopped him staying up all night then coz he was at risk to lose his job.
He come off the anti depressants for a bit but then eventually it came clear he seem to be then taking the cocaine most days.
Yes I’m the same feel I can’t win if he goes out I’m worried I know what he will be doing but he if he stays at home and has done that then I can’t enjoy the time with him at all. Make me feel so distant to him. then I think why is he even with me if he’s taking something that distances him from me.