Hiya I hope your ok….
I know the feeling of the lies & hurt, it becomes normal life in the end to them because that is their only way out of things.
My partner used to look up escorts on hes phone ( I would never know wether he actually met one or not)
Always stating out never coming home for days, all while I spent most days pretending to everyone that everything was so lovely and we was a perfect family! That is so hard to keep up to everyone because deep down you hate the person that is causing it all and the fact you are lying for them and covering their disgusting habit makes you feel even worse.
I had had enough after years and years of the same crap, so the final straw was when he dissapeared for a week, I was an absolute mess I thought he had died as he had no phone and didn’t contact. ( he was just completely off hes head with scum)
So I decided to have my locks changed and pack all hes things up and told him he had to go.
My eyes had been opened I didn’t want this life anymore, not sleeping properly, making dinners for the invisible, being lonely, my son not having a decent father in hes life.
He knows I have had enough and he is on the road to sorting hes life out, but he has a long way to go, and I have to be tough on him because I never ever ever will put up with that again. I hope you manage to sort things with your husband x