I know what u mean. I was gutted for years when my 1st love dumped me. Its not a good feeling at all and I just went off the rails for a few year when I was 18.
I spoke for 2 mins last night in a meeting lol. I’m getting a bit better. I seriously hate stuff like this. I’ve always said ill never get married because I have to do a speech. I probably would get my mum to do it at the side of me while I hold her hand ????