Ermm I don’t find it intrusive I’m an open book.
I’ve found I’ve been back how I used to be and everything is normal after the first few months
When I first stopped I can’t tell you how I was feeling as my anxiety and emotions were all over the place.
My feelings now are :-
Im not depressed in the slightest
My life’s alot better
I can make clear decisions
I can see who is positive in my life
I can see bad people and avoid them as well
My anxiety has almost gone although with court I had a back week with anxiety
I sleep now. Not stayed up all night in over 10 months (since I basically stopped using)
I feel better physically (I do train though)
I look better I’m nearly 12.7 stone where as I was 9 stone I think 10 months back
What I do remember is when I used to use I used to get the urge to cheat and gamble
I won’t even gamble now I think in ten months only thing I’ve done is buy about 4 scratchcards but I’m careful with that as well. I see my friends placing football bets but I self excluded myself. Won’t even place a bet on a horse.
If you are stopping drugs stop the gambling as well
I used to excess gamble when I was high it was infactuating
Sorry to hear about your partner I hope he can get off it because it’s not easy. Coke is everywhere and the only way to stop is avoid it and have resilience to say no and it’s not just a battle at first but a battle forever. The cravings do disappear it’s just a matter of avoiding and knowing to say no.