Hiya, I hope you are OK.
I’m just over 3 months clean from cocaine now after 11 to 12 years addiction. I’m no were near cured as yet. But I’m getting there. I’ve tried for the last 7 years to quit. I’ve tried everything. But 1st of all you have to want to quit for your self. You can’t be forced or it won’t help. I had to delete all dealers numbers, friends and family who use, deleted my Facebook account and social media. You can message dealers on there, and seeing people and there happy fake life’s can make u want to use.
The come downs from coke are awful. The minute my bag ran out I wanted more and if I could not get any, I would feel depressed and suicidal. This can last for days.
I hit my rock bottom on boxing day for the 2nd time. My heart was pounding for days and days, I had bad anxiety and I just had enough.
So I decided to join CA anonymous after vowing if never do meetings ect…. Now I’m doing meetings, I’m working the 12 steps and I’ve got a sponsor. I have to connect with other addicts each day which helps. And this programme is working. I feel amazing today. I feel so happy and everything is falling into place.
I know how you feel regarding your son. My 1st rock bottom I was crying at 6am on my own and text my mum everything. I told her the lot. She was upset a great deal. And checked on me each day. But then I relapsed and carried on using for another year I think. I told her my full story again 3 days ago.she wasn’t happy but she knows I’m on track.
But regarding your son he really needs to want to quit for himself. And then set some goals. I’d have a quiet word with him and see what he wants to do. And also u suggest what u want him to do, and see if he agrees.
Feel free to ask me anything