thelostone, I still come here sometimes to read your lessons and advice to David, as they are so precious and mature. Fruit of the pain that made you stronger and love yourself more. I had left the ex, I returned and we stayed a month together (march) he doesn’t want be with someone to worryabout being tired or have used coc@ine, and he dismissed me saying that it is time for him to be alone, and that he was fond of me. I know I was wrong to come back, I just didn’t want to be alone. In part I understand Davi, codependence, having invested and not having a return, not having been validated, and some good times. Now in April, already without him, after 4 months together (I was sick with a sexual illness that he passed on to me) helping both of us, he listless, indifferent. Then he bought me the medicine I asked for when away from him. And on returning, he again confused. I didn’t appreciate myself. He is strongly a psychop@t@ alcoholic addict, as Sam Vaknin says … I victimized myself and want to left the state of victim. I wanted to enter into this relationship, ignored the red flags, and remained in need, I regret it. This is what you said to David, I take so much for myself, if you love yourself, if you respect yourself, the pain of love passes. We cling to false, selfish people, to the difficulty. Love is simpler than that! Thelostone, I just unfriended him on Instagram and Facebook, and the next day he blocked me (angry I think), I said when he broke up with me, that I wouldn’t be one of the girls he used to give up on but he never went out … and that are poorly resolved on his social media shelf. Yes, I am suffering … because from another profile, I saw a movement of him with a woman very out of the standard that I have. I know that I am better than he deserved, the way is to allow time and God to heal me, I have prayed. To stroll. Read. Cry too. David, it wasn’t years that I spent, but I really hope you get out of it like me. Detoxing her. I will succeed … it is frustration to have been with someone like this, so as not to be alone and to have been “rejected” by an addict. His facial expressions, at the end, completely false, forced suffering and pity to end. I need to let go of the anger. David …. anger generates bonds with them, releasing them inside, every day as Thelostone said, let the thought go …. if we fight we get angry, I pray to forgive, forgive myself for having taken that 7 months. What the hell.
