Yes there was, I’ve had a few rock bottoms, the last one was boxing day, and from using Xmas day night, I woke up and my heart was pounding really bad, and I felt really bad anxiety. This lasted for about 4 days. And I though I can’t keep doing this anymore, do I really want to be doing this at 50. My little girl seeing me bad on coke at 50, plus health reasons. It’s not enjoyable doing it.
It’s weird really because I’ve had worse Rock bottoms and this one wasn’t that bad. I’d just had enough. I’d been trying to quit for years. I think the more you try, no matter how long you have been trying, it gets easier in the end if that makes sence.
Plus I’ve never been a bad drinker. I could go without it for weeks. But when I drink I get coke. But it got to we’re I was getting coke without drink. Joining this programme I have realised I have to quit alcohol altogether. So now I can’t ever drink again.