3.5yrs I’ve been with my partner and we have a 1yr old. He told me he dabbled with it after his divorce and told me he was clean. I like u also found out that wasn’t quite the truth and he had used and he also promised to stop! This Friday just gone he decided to cause a row over yoghurt pack all his stuff and literally go and live at his dealers and I’ve not heard from him so far since not even to ask how his son is! I am broken I cry daily I can eat more than one meal and our son is looking for him calling dada round the house.. the reality is though my partner probably isn’t giving us a second thought right now. I know I am not helping but if ur partner is just at the start it may get worse for u. I got left for a bender when I was pregnant all because I wouldn’t let him go nighty fishing with his dealer, I trusted him to take our son to meet his mum for the first time while I had a sleep and I found out he took out son to meet his dealer I kicked him out then he told me that was his changing point and I believe he was clean from that point so just over a yr clean, and now this just gone again no contact. I don’t know if they all behave like this? I am so lost my inside physically hurt. Sorry not much help but just my experience of how it can worsen. I love my partner so very much and want him home but the reality is will this be life?? And that’s if he even comes home this time
