Hi,
Thank you for sharing on the forum. I can see how difficult you are finding your husband’s secret drinking and how damaging it is for you as well. I wonder if you would like to contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports people who are having to deal with an addiction in their family like you. If you would like someone to talk with one of our Family friends would listen to you. they are trained and experienced and talking might help you deal withy what you do next. They can also let you know what other help is available.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck with everything.