Hi,
Thanks for sharing your story. I’m glad that you’ve found this forum as hopefully talking with people like Danman will help you. I’m glad that your husband is getting counselling but if you would like some help for yourself you might like to contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that offers help to people going through what you are , dealing with addiction in their family. We have trained and experienced Family Friends who you could talk with if you get in touch. Talking with them might help you to move forward and they would be able to let you know what other support is available .
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you.