Erin, thank you for your comment. It has helped me not feel like a horrible person.
It’s been a difficult week with my partner just on ‘simmer’ – drinking on the sly and refuting it to the entire family. Watching her own children harden towards her is heartbreaking. This evening the eldest gave me roundabout consent to me asking her mother to move out. The girls are strong and, sadly have older heads on their shoulders than they should but it helps that they want calm as well.
The love is there but, but it’s being steadily tenderised now. She needs to come full circle with herself. In her own words she’s a ‘rule breaker’ so my desire to ‘control’ (Please dont drink?) her just makes her want to more… not really anything left to say to that.
I’ve now got to wait for a sober ‘window’.