Hi liberty
thanks for reading my story and your kind words.
you make some very good points,
interesting about the choice of partners addicts have although I guess this isn’t always the case as you do get couples that are both users,
I have thought about this a lot though, that basically the only thing I wouldn’t do for my girlfriend was condone drugs.
so that means the only thing any future partner for her could ever offer her that I didn’t was a shared love for drugs.
pretty sad really that that would be worth more than everything else.
Have you noticed though that people with problems surround themselves with others with the same problems, I guess they find it easier to be honest about themselves if their friends are similar, whereas someone like me makes it harder for them to keep up the self delusion.
So what stage are things at with your boyfriend,
how long have you been together and do you have kids/house etc together tying you down?
I find it quite ironic that all the things a drug problem normally causes the user to lose (family, home, pets,job) are all the things I am losing whilst she keeps it all (job doesn’t really count but I am currently still on furlough so job security on top of everything else feels strangely relevant to my current state)