David, that’s unexpected, so you only became considerate and caring in those lovely ways because you had to step up amid the chaos? Not the kind of scenario I’d have ever guessed, is that where I’m going wrong then! I’m so caring to my bf, the real housewife type. Should I just be a bitch?! He says he’ll do a lot, give up crack, be more risk-averse. He says a lot of things. I’m always there to feed him, get him home in an Uber if he gets stuck (he can’t afford to drive at the mo). Any nice things are arranged and paid for by me. He’s never once, bought me a birthday or Christmas card, ever, in years, he’s often sold for crack what he’s intended to give me as gifts, and the gifts he does give me he seems to regret. the list is endless… I, on the other hand am always bringing home treats, flowers, the biscuits he likes. The just eat food he likes when he isn’t feeling well. Or cooking the things he likes. Thing is, even if I consider being a bitch, it isn’t in my nature. I can be a terrier sometimes, I’m small and softly spoken which people often perceive as weak and shy, but I’m definitely neither, but I’m a fair minded and reasonable person. Too fair minded probably.
On your appearance, my bf is terrifying to most people, but not to me, not that that’s here nor there really, but I don’t mind that. I soften his look beside him and I quite like that his protective don’t mess with me face is a deterrent, makes me feel safe. So again, perhaps what you see as unconventional is a blessing.
I’m in two minds about what you say, we’re wise to it so they back off. It used to be my bf would avoid me because I remind him of his faults. Now he seems to just not care, he’s killing himself for sure. Last year when things got so bad I had doubts how long his poor body could survive, he’s since survived covid.
I don’t know, we’ve been through a lot together, but if that doesn’t mean much to him shy should it to me anymore.
Hope you’re having a good week, sending care xx