yeh it was great to climb the mountain,
my head hasn’t been driving me quite so mad lately, and I’ve been sleeping better,
so the mountain was especially enjoyable as I wasn’t mentally torturing myself like I have been for months.
I am a bit achy now but but I think its from the long drive rather than the walking, as it was a 500 mile round trip and I did both journeys in around 4 hours each without breaks so too long sat down ha.
I guess the thing with having no contact from her in over 6 weeks now means that I’m not as angry and upset as I was 6 weeks ago, like it still upsets me to think about it and I still miss her, but I don’t feel possessed by emotion like I had, whereas if I still had some contact it would no doubt keep reopening the wound.
I refuse to look on facebook or anything as I hate it anyway and I’m sure seeing posts on there would only wind me up.
sorry to hear things are bad for you at the minute, dealing is a nightmare scenario like you say, it means he’s actively involved in spreading the misery for others too, and also just means they are surrounded by other people that make it seem normal. and no doubt the person he is dealing for is bad news and a nasty piece of work, I mean people that deal in drugs that ruin peoples lives are normally either nasty people or addicted themselves.
so do you think this is it, will you cut him off for good, and will he try and fix things or does he just let things go along and leave you to fix everything (like my situation)and I hope you haven’t given him too much money that you wont get back.
walk along the thames sounds good, how much of it did you walk,
I do a lot of walking most days, there is a nice lake and river (that does eventually join the thames ha) by my house so I have a few nice routes I go on locally.
I like to get my 10000 steps every day I guess that’s my addiction ha.