First thing , mate I’m so happy that you have you life back I’ve seen the damage this drug has done to us and I’m so glad there are happy endings . It’s mad me go crazy at times . Following her , going to see her dealer , taking away her cash card etc.,..none of it worked . It’s just so hard for me to watch her basically destroy her self and I can’t do anything about it . Also when she’s telling her family who no nothing about it that our relationship is bad cos we are arguing , when to be honest we are only ever arguing about coke , which is rare because I know it’s an illness , I’m just thinking am I the problem and if I left would she be better off or is she just saying this to deflect the situation to her family . She went to her friends on Saturday for a drink , told me she wouldn’t be having coke but didn’t come home till the following morning , basically I woke up to a text saying I need you please come and pick me up , so I do. She slept all day just wanting me to hold her. She woke up today and was so cold with me like she forgot about yesterday , I don’t understand any of this , it looks like when she’s used she wants me to be there for her but when she’s craving it she hates me , even tho we’ve been together 10 years and I’ve stood by her and been supportive though all her mental health issues and always managed to pick her back up , I just don’t know if I’m the issues here ?
