Hi Salboo, welcome to the forum, everyone here has a loved one who has addictions and also some people in recovery offering support and advice too.
I’m sorry to read your story, such a difficult thing to go through on your own. Sometimes you have to break away from a situation for self preservation. You need to do this, or your mental and physical health will suffer.
Yes, it’s difficult to speak to others about it, you feel embarrassed or that you’re being judged for not supporting well enough. My son has alcohol and cocaine addictions and I usually post on the Theresa thread here. There are several of us mums with sons with addictions. Everyone is so understanding and supportive.
There will be others in your situation too, click onto Share your Story and scroll through.
The forum has a homepage with support and the Icarus Trust posts here too.
Please don’t feel alone, keep in touch here and speak to others, you’ll feel like a weight has been lifted off you.
Take care ❤
Lx