That’s brilliant what you’ve written there xx
Especially if it helps you too! You’ve got a talent there xx
My partner was and I were a thing 10 years and I knew he dabbled with coke in his younger years as I did myself.
But when we got back in touch the past couple of years he never told me at all about being on drugs. In fact he told me when I asked if he would do coke again that he wouldn’t go near it it’s not worth it. Yet there he is secretly taking crack and smoking heroin!
He works 5-6 days a week in the building trade and functions fairly well. I noticed he has these late late nights , he lives an hour and half from me.so we phone and text a lot if we aren’t together.
And he would be up all night but in the past I’d stayed up talking to him with no drugs or booze.
And then he would sleep all day/night I started getting suspicious. When I couldn’t get hold of him I thought he was cheating so looked in his phone and found messages about him being off his head on drugs for the past couple of years.
I much rather he had another woman on the go I was completely gob smacked!
He’s yet to actually tell me himself and I’ve told him I know somethings not right but he keeps papering over the cracks and acting all normal.
I’ve messaged him again tonight saying I want honesty before anything else can happen.
But maybe it’s a lost cause. I’m devastated as you are too.
Everyone is telling me to walk away but even all those years ago it was love at first sight and I just feel I owe it to him to at least discuss it when he’s ready and see what he has to say.
If he doesn’t admit it I will know I need to walk away but I will tell his family so at least they can try and get him help. Xx
I think you are incredibly brave to walk away as I know how you are feeling and I guess I will be doing the same too.
I have a child from another relationship so I won’t be messing about if he doesn’t want to change then I won’t hang about. X