Hi Becky,
Sorry to read what you are going through. It’s really hard for you I know and even tougher with children involved.
If you would like to please contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that offers support for people dealing with addiction in their family as we know how hard this can be. One of our trained and experienced family Friends would talk with you and speaking with them might help you feel it’s less of a struggle.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best.