Emma
I am so so pleased for you.
Yes I am just he only person he has his mother is a chronic alcoholic and his father well he is a lifelong womaniser.
He swears at me mostly which makes me laugh now. Yesterday he asked me to bring his hammer, come to his bedroom window and smash it so he could get
He cries and I do feel sorry for him but it doesn’t make me sad anymore.
I don’t love him anymore.
I couldn’t be around him anymore; I have lost all respect for him and when he calls my heart sinks as I don’t really want to talk to him.
I can still hear the manipulation in some of the tings he says; “If I don’t make it out of here, always be happy” that really choked me at the time. But then I thought about it and it was just a keep me there wasn’t it, So I keep worrying about him.
I found some videos yesterday of him (now I realise) on Valium. I found the tablets in his garage and didn’t know what they were at the time.
I wonder if he will actually ever come out; he is all over the place. I think it would be easier to name what tablets he wasn’t taking (his mate did eventually tell me) the list was endless topped off with a daily chronic crack habit his brain chemistry must be completely knackered.
His mate also did say to me “he was always like it you just didn’t see it”
His addiction goes back 20+ years and he is asking the psychiatrist and carers to get him crack
I absolutely do not want a relationship! You are so brave.
You have a new and fresh start make sure it stays positive and very importantly on your terms